Thursday, I went to Devin's school to see him read some of the things he had written. It was wonderful. Afterwards I hot to meet all of his friends. And I must say everyone has their own little thing going on. Seeing as it's a fine arts school I guess that's expected. It was neat:))

That night Eric, Kristi, Justin, Nick, and I went bowling. I came in third because I suck. But I'm not as bad as Kristi and jrowe:p I had to take my moms suv because cramming five people in my car is impossible with all the baby stuff in there. Not that I mind. Later some crazy stuff went down. Nothing I'm going to ever mention that's forsure.

I woke up to Ashton screaming because Eric accidently dropped the bottle and it hit him in the head. I wasn't very happy. When I called the doctor they said that it was okay as long as the bump went outwards. And it did. A few hours later it went down. I was seriously scared. But he's okay and that's what matters.

Have you ever had one of those days where anything you say gets turned into a song? I've been having a lot of those lately. And I must say it's the best.

Last night Eric and I watched two movies. We don't get to spend a ton of time doing things like that and I really enjoyed it. Ashton slept mostly. He likes sleeping.

Ashton's eating more and with greater times inbetween each feeding. He only wakes up once or twice a night. I just looked over at him and he has hiccups. And he really really gets annoyed by them. He has almost grown out of all of his clothes. Time to go by new ones:)

I'm not getting as pissed off as I usually do. I guess the medicine I'm using works as far as depression and anxiety go. I do fell a bit jittery and my teeth hurt from always hitting down really hard. Silly side effect. They should go away soon. But I'm glad that I feel good about myself again. That's something that I haven't felt in a while.

My house is a mess and eric's mom is coming over tomorrow so I guess it's full on cleaning today. Eric's going to enjoy this.

How things go

I've been extremely bitchy lately and to all of the wrong people. I want to apologize and things get back to normal. Butttt I'm super scared they wont forgive me. So do I take that chance? Yes, as soon as I get the courage to do so. I'm seriously hoping thing get better.

It's pretty much freezing, just saying.

Ashton is moving so much. He's like a little ninja or something. Yeah that's right he'll kick your butt:p but forreal it's cute when he's asleep and makes little whiney noises. He's playing with a few toys every now and then. Oh, and he doesn't like tummy time very much.

Okay so a lot of things have been going on. Much of it I'd rather not say because it would make me and some other people look pretty bad. I am going to say that it all got fixed and the last two days have been pretty good. Stay this way please???

My dad only has a few radiation treatments left. He really doesn't like to talk about it, but did manage to tell me that his cancer isn't as bad as it used to be. Good. And I'm glad he told me at least one thing.

Oh how i've missed our adventures.

This weekend was pretty epic. Friday night Hailey stayed over and we played the kinect for hours. Saturday night I hung out with kristi and Justin. We went around everwhere. Kristi and I were dressed alike looking slighty like sluts. We did yoga in old navy and drew on the floor with chalk. Then we ate and looked for potential to stalk. We found some dumb kids thaT we had been making fun of for a while but they wouldn't leave. So we went to walmart and found a car with three people. Made it really obvious we were following them. Then they followed us to a gas station where they got out and yelled for a minute. That was fun.

I'm currently looking for a job. My demands are kinda high seeing as I have to find a babysitter and whatnot. I want something three days a week for about 6 hours a day. Right now I'm trying to get on at the place Kristi works at looking after children when school let's out for three hours a day. That would be perfect. Wish me luck.

Ashton's doing a little more. He makes tons of noises and stays up for longer periods of time. He's also eating a good bit more. Luckly wic pays for most of the formula. He's in size one diapers. They're still pretty small. He's out of newborn clothes except for pants. Hopefully I'll have some pics up soon.

I wish we had money to pay bills. Eric's work slowed down to a stop and he hasn't looked for a new one very much. I haven't either though. It's stressful knowing you can't pay for anything you have or need. Not even gas. On the upside of the money issues Eric doesn't owe any of his medical bills from the wreck. His finacial aid was approved, yay. One less t hing to stay awake thinking about.

I ordered some glasses. Hoping I don't look like crap wearing them. I only had a choice of a few pair because my face is smaller than most of the frames they had. I also got contacts, as always.

My new goal is to get a new friend. Here I go:))

I found out christmas eve that my dads cancer has spread to his brain. No one decided to tell me when they found out. Maybe they forgot? Don't think so.

Eric and I are having a hard time spending time together. It's gotten better over the past few days. I hope things stay that way. We've always had our ups and downs. Relationships are always like that though right?

I realized that I surround myself with people by their flaws. I'm not exactly sure how to explain this but I will try my hardest. I fall in love with people's flaws. I always look for the worst things about a person. And after hanging out for a while I get very annoyed. And I don't want to be around them anymore. This is something I'd like to change about myself but I don't see it happening ever.

Hey you there

Today has been one of those wake up every few hours and go back to sleep kind of days. For some reason my stomachs hurts extremely bad and there isn't anything I can do about it. Ashton's really starting to be more alert. It amazes me how he can pick up on things he's never been able to do before so quickly. Ohh and the noises he makes are soo cute. Christmas was pretty fun. Not as much traveling as I thought there would be. And it snowed. Andone who lives in Alabama knows this seeing any snow is super duper rare. I got kinect and I absolutely love it. The only problem is Eric likes to play his games all the time and when he's not playing I'm either cleaning the house or playing with Ashton. So I don't see myself getting to play very much unless we work some schedule out and ohh we will:) Ashton Got a ton of things. Toys, money, and clothes. We're pretty much set for a while. Eric got some cool stuff too. He bought most of the things he wanted for christmas before so I imagine shopping for him was a bit of a pain. Our tub foset is always running hot water and I have no clue how to fix it. So when we want to take a shower or something it's usually freezing cold. Not cute. I forreal wish I could magically lose all of this after pregnancy baby weight crap. I just want to be able to wear normal clothes and feel alright with myself for the first time in months. Yeah that would be nice. I should probably quit bitching about things like that. Anyways ts time for me to go clean.

Dkdjr;)

IT'S ALMOST CHRISTMAS:)) okay so I had to get that over with. Things have been pretty boring lately. I haven't really seen anyone for something cool to happen. Ashton's getting bigger and it seems like he's picking up on things fast. He picks his head up for short periods of time and looks at me when I talk to him. Ohh and I'm slowly losing all that weight. Only like 35 pounds to go. I'm so not happy with the way i look. Not to mention how my vagina feels sometimes. I'm sure everyone wanted to know about that. And how about my nonexisiting sex life at the moment. LAME!! I just got over some strange sickness. Crazy flu like thing. Anyways, I really wanna do something soon like ice skating or bowling. I'm pretty much just ready to get out of the house. And I'm sure ashton's grandparents would love to watch hi
for a while since that's all anyone talks about:) I'm so glad he's a good baby. His grunts are pretty cute and he never cries unless he has gas. Giving him a bath is pretty fun too. I cant wait for him to get a little bigger so he can play with the toys we got him for christmas. Well I guess I should be cleaning right now. I've almost gotten caught up on everything and eric's been helping. Fun stuff:))

It's been a while

So, my laptop has been broken for a while now. I had written a huge blog on my phone, but when I posted it nothing showed up. Yeah I was annoyed. Anyways, that's why I haven't been on. Tomorrow's my birthday. Maybe Ashton will decide to join the world then. If I don't go into labor before Monday morning I'll be induced. I feel like crap right now. We have a kitten now. It's pretty crazy but she's cute. And she keeps me company while Eric's at work. Right now I'm waiting for him to call but he won't get off work til real late. Pretty stupid that he'll have to be there at seven in the morning. We haven't really gotten any time to spend together lately other than going to doctor appoinments. Pretty lame right? I feel old because we've been going to bed at like seven or eight every night. Told you I don't feel good. And I'll probably take a nap while waiting on him. I've almost got the house completely clean. Seeing as in a few days I really won't have time to do it all. Look at me planning ahead. I had to get a certain person's number blocked from eric's phone. He asked me to do it and that made me really happy. Some people should know right from wrong and yeah he messed up some too, but at least now he's trying to fix everything. I'm so sick of the drama. I thought about sending her mother the pictures she sent but I figured I'd be the better person in all of this. Well time for that nap:)