.

If only I could close my eyes
and everything get better
I feel like my world
has been flipped upside down

my dad is getting a lot worse
they found four tumors in his brain
and two in his spine on top of
the ones we already knew about
then said there's not
much they can do
dad still wants to fight
but we wont know
if he can until monday
this seems like forever

We've been preparing
for him to come home
building a ramp, widening doors,
stuff out, and cleaning
I even took a dog,cat, and kitten
to the humane society
and I cried.

Here I am at 4:52am
trying to clear my head
as everything sinks in
telling myself not to worry
that everything will fall into place
but life just doesn't seem
that way anymore.